A New Beginning

I'm feeling compelled to write. Getting my thoughts out in a journal format seems to be just what I need.

I lost my Dad this month to a heart attack. I miss him and his presence in my life and the lives of my children more than I can express. Going through his personal items, looking at old photos and being in his empty apartment took a toll on me. I know the pain and void I am experiencing will not go away immediately but I look forward to the days when I am more happy than sad.

In an attempt to learn and grow from this life experience I have been doing a lot of thinking about my life in general. I've decided that life is short and the best thing about my life is the various people in it. My goal is to be the best friend and family member I can. To listen to everyone and see the positives as they appear rather than focus on negatives. To help whenever possible and enjoy as many interactions as possible. My hopes are that these positive times will enrich my life as well as the lives of others around me. This is not necessarily a new approach but more of a focused and conscious approach that I hope will soon be very natural, thus producing the positives I am hopeful for. This is what I consider a new beginning.

This weekend the family headed to Sunriver. On Saturday I will run the Pacific Crest Half Marathon for the fifth time. I'm a little worried as my knee is a bit swollen from a 10 mile run on Monday, thus I am not a 100%. Training was hard to come by this time around but I'll still give it my all, and run this one for my Dad.



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